“Attraction is not a Choice.” David DeAngelo

TH and me are going on a date tomorrow evening....

Couldn't really be much more nervous but at the same time I am ridiculously excited. I also hate myself for being so convinced that this one feels different. Everything about it is different.

"Courage is the discovery that you may not win, and trying when you know you can lose"
Tom Krause

While that may be true I cannot fool myself into thinking the outcome will be any variation to the norm.

Bug Zapper

10 Best Disney Films

1) Jungle Book
"Many strange legends are told of these jungles of India, but none so strange as the story of a small boy named Mowgli." - Bagheera

2) Beauty & the Beat
"Couldn't keep quiet, could we? Just had to invite him to stay, didn't we? [imitating Lumiere] "Serve him tea. Sit in ze master's chair. Pet the pooch!" - Cogsworth

3) Aladdin
"Thank you for choosing "Magic Carpet" for all your travel needs. Don't stand until the rug has come to a complete stop. Thank you." - Genie

4) Peter Pan
"You can't stick it on with soap, Peter. It needs sewing. That's the proper way to do it. Although, come to think of it, I've never thought about it before... um... sewing shadows, I mean." - Wendy

5) Pocahontas
"You can own the earth and still. All you'll own is earth until You can paint with all the colours of the wind." - Pocahontas

6) The Little Mermaid
"If only I could make him understand, I just don't see the way he does, I just don't see how a world would make such wonderful things, could be bad." - Ariel

7) The Lion King
"Let me get this straight. You know her. She knows you. But she wants to eat him. And everybody's okay with this? " - Timon

8) Robin Hood
"You know somethin', Robin. I was just wonderin', are we good guys or bad guys? You know, I mean, uh? Our robbin' the rich to feed the poor." - Little John

9) The Aristocats
"Shang-hai Hong Kong egg fu yung! Fortune cookie always wrong! " Chinese Cat

10) Cindarella
"Get up. Quick, this instant. We haven't a moment to lose. Anastasia? Anastasia. Get up, Anastasia. " - Step Mother

3 Close Contenders

• Lady & the Tramp
• Snow White & the Seven Dwarfs
• Pinnocchio

Beautiful Disaster

Have you ever met someone for the first time and your first thought was “wow!”

That happened to me on Wednesday. Well no, it happened before I actually met the person we will call TH.

My week was a mess, with organising a terrifying work event that featured a live band. The record company were providing the sound engineer and only the day before the event, I discovered they had forgotten to book one. TH was the only recommendation I had so I cold-called him. This man could not have been more amazing. Incredibly helpful and sweet and even willing to change his plans to allow him to work at the event, I could not wait to meet him.

By 7:30pm on the day of the event the guests were piling in, everything was crazy and I thought my head would burst. I was briefing the door staff on the guest list when in walked the most beautiful man. I instantly knew it was TH. In person he was even more lovely than on the phone and oh so attractive.

"Intuition is the clear conception of the whole at once."
Johann Kaspar Lavater

The night as a whole was mad but a big success. I had very little time to speak to TH but anytime I asked for his help (I admittedly looked for reasons to talk to him) he was more than happy to help and so his manner was so calming and sweet.

The following day I sent him an email providing him with invoice details and to say thank you. Rather than returning my email, he sent me a text saying what a pleasure it was to meet me and that he hopes we see each other again.

This couldn’t be more of a disaster… Judging by my track record, I now have approximately two weeks before he never speaks to me again.

"Experience is the best teacher, but a fool will learn from no other."
Benjamin Franklin

Preparing for a date.... Logistical Nightmare?

Tonight I am going on a date with a lovely Italian man and I feel (in this order):

• Nervous
• Excited
• Happy
  
• Cautious
  
• Vulnerable
  

The added pressure of the evening include the fact that most people in the damn town seems to know one or both of us thanks to our jobs. Can you imagine being on a date and having people you know coming over to chat and ask awkward questions? Bad News! This makes the venue choice is a bit of a mission.

1. Meet at 8 and go for a drink a gorgeous wine bar (none of my customers, lots of his!)
2. Head off to a unknown location for dinner (he is choosing venue and I've been warned that there will be none of his customers but some of mine)
3. Go for a drink in a lovely bar at the river. (Possibly frequents by our customers but unlikely)
   

On top of this I have the usual stressful crazy date preparation to get through!

My Date Preparation (up to and inc. tonight):

• Consider outfit and realise I have nothing remotely suitable in my wardrobe
• Rush out to buy some gorgeous black trousers that I 100% cannot afford
  
• Give my self a facial

- 1 Day before

• Pluck eyebrows
• Exfoliate
• Try on outfit and realise the gorgeous new trousers are too big.
  
• Panic and run over all the bad men I have ever met in my life before convincing myself that Mr Italian is not like any of them.
  

- Day of Date (morning)

• Set out the suitable parts of my outfit for quick change later
• Set out a contingency outfit
  
• Rush out before work to change the trousers for a better fitting pair
• Arrive late and flustered in to work and proceed through my day more stressed than necessary
  

- Day of Date (p.m. - 1 hour to get home, ready and back out)

• Have a super quick shower (I am great at these!) - max 5 mins
  
• Jump into my outfit (that now hopefully fits!) - max 5 mins
  
• Blow dry, straighten and back comb my hair - 25 mins
• Start Make up, natural but flattering - 10 mins
• Run for the bus which will inevitably be late - 10mins
• Continue Make Up while on the bus - 5 - 10 mins
• Run up the High Road - 5 mins
  
• Arrive looking windswept and no doubt awful with a big smile (fashionably 5 -10 minutes late)
  

So here goes, hopefully it will be a good night - I think it will - I hope it will! Wow, how stressful is dating? Shoud it really be this tough?

A Childhood Away

15 years… a lot can happen in 15 years.

A child can get receive their full education in that time. Including Primary School, High School and then University.

In 15 years a bump in a Mother’s tummy can go from nothing more than a cause for great excitement to becoming a beautiful, happy and strong young woman.

That first child can wait 15 years to meet what she knew as the bump in a Mother’s tummy. She can spend years asking about what the baby will look like now, she can remember each year that the little bump will be getting older. She can count down the years until she feels that little bump will be old enough for her to make contact… then after 15 years of waiting, a full 15 years of anticipation… that bump that is her beautiful little sister can suddenly come into her life and everything automatically fits into place. Everything feels right!

My gorgeous sister (left) with her best friend (right)

That’s correct folks, I have waited 15 years to meet my ‘baby’ sister and now in past week I have discovered where she is, had an amazing phone conversation with her, and have received at least one SMS everyday since Wednesday. In only six short weeks, I will be meeting her for the first time.

"In the cookies of life, sisters are the chocolate chips"

I could not be more excited! I feel so incredibly lucky and blessed.

Thank you lord!