Monday, 6 April 2009

“In the confusion we stay with each other, happy to be together, speaking without uttering a single word”

“A gentleman is one who never hurts anyone's feelings unintentionally.”
Oscar Wilde

I hate being wrong, I hate that I can't open my eyes to see the truth, I hate it that I can't even understand my own thoughts and feelings and that I'm ridiculous, with pretty much everything, I hate that I can't ever seek comfort and when I attempt to I get it all wrong, I go about it the wrong way, I make a mess of things, I ruin things.

Then again, I might not understand myself in the slightest, but I'll never be as bad as a man who can never make up their mind and seem to make it their mission to mess with your head

“Anger is just a cowardly extension of sadness. It's a lot easier to be angry at someone than it is to tell them you're hurt.”
Tom Gates

Even the nicest men mess with your head. Men you consider your best friends, or more. They always manage to get inside your head and have a good rake around until they find that exact spot - that tiny little button that when pushed, will send you over the edge. How are they programmed like that?

How are we programmed to accept that when we know we shouldn't

"I hate the way you're always right. I hate it when you lie. I hate it when you make me laugh, even worse when you make me cry. I hate it when you're not around, and the fact that you didn't call. But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you. Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all. " 10 Things I Hate About You

Why do I even care? *Screams and pulls out hair*


  1. I'm not sure which of the London,Manchester or Taynuilt man this could be about...or if there's another....but this I do know about men:

    Partly by nature and partly by nuture are we raised to be 'good women' This aspect of our very being makes us the 'emotional, caring, nurturing' partner and men are to be 'strong, resilient and protective' ones. Hence they have the ability to scramble our heads (while protecting their own) and we want to feel that connection, so we allow them in freely.

    To be confused about loving someone who you know may not be the best choice at the best time or the best whatever...makes you very normal and human, which is all that we can strive to be at any single time.
    In the end....
    "I'd rather be the one who loves than to be loved and never even know." ~ Josh Ritter (Snow is Gone)

  2. Great quote Mel, although the start of the comment makes me sound horrible!

    While I do not have a Taynuilt man, the confusion with Manchester and London men has left me in a mess.

    Not listening to my own feelings and believing the safe option has left me in a mess. Not a total mess with people, but a mess with myself.

    I have been horrible, not to anyone, but just in general. I have been a bad judge of my own head.

    I have been a fool, made a mess of things.

    My head was a mess, I wasn't myself and everything from the past 5 or 6 years got on top of me and led me down strange and self-destructive routes (this is not exclusive to men situation, just in general)

    This comment hasn't even started on the confusion being cause by a particular person. I have one word for this situation - Karma.

    Mel I am a mess and just want to be home

  3. *Awwwww* *Hugs*... not make you sound bad at all! I was just trying to figure whether someone else was trying to get back in the picture!*L*

    It's tough! You are away from home, kinda lonely and trying to figure it all out.

    I can guarantee that no one thinks you are a fool (with the exception of yourself...and we are always our own worst critic!) Most people are too absorbed in their own lives to really notice what's going no worries! That said..take a few days to just chill, look for signs and go with the flow. No need to stress or worry about things. :)

    As for the karma thing...if you think you've done bad things or worse, bad things to need to give yourself a break (everyone does bad things to themselves, it's our human nature)and look at all the good things you've done for people too (including yourself!)..and need a smoke, a hug, a good cryin, a cuppa and maybe some crazy burning ritual.*LOL*

    And then....start again doing things YOU feel are the right things to do. Everyone else be damned. :)

    You will be home soon take a walk to St. Pauls and sit in awe of the floors, the ceilings, the chandeliers, the size of everything! Breathe...because the time definitely does fly! :)
    And of course...if you need someone just to listen (without giving advice or ideas)..just let me know and I can be quiet ;) (and then suggest we have a drink together*LOL*) If there is some floor space for me, I can come over.