A Childhood Away

15 years… a lot can happen in 15 years.

A child can get receive their full education in that time. Including Primary School, High School and then University.

In 15 years a bump in a Mother’s tummy can go from nothing more than a cause for great excitement to becoming a beautiful, happy and strong young woman.

That first child can wait 15 years to meet what she knew as the bump in a Mother’s tummy. She can spend years asking about what the baby will look like now, she can remember each year that the little bump will be getting older. She can count down the years until she feels that little bump will be old enough for her to make contact… then after 15 years of waiting, a full 15 years of anticipation… that bump that is her beautiful little sister can suddenly come into her life and everything automatically fits into place. Everything feels right!

My gorgeous sister (left) with her best friend (right)

That’s correct folks, I have waited 15 years to meet my ‘baby’ sister and now in past week I have discovered where she is, had an amazing phone conversation with her, and have received at least one SMS everyday since Wednesday. In only six short weeks, I will be meeting her for the first time.

"In the cookies of life, sisters are the chocolate chips"

I could not be more excited! I feel so incredibly lucky and blessed.

Thank you lord!

Things change - People change

Well it has been a while.
I’m really not good at this blogging business but I feel that so much in my life is changing that I have a duty to myself to document at least a few of those changes.

In the past few months I have lived through countless of small personal changes:

Change of location to the amazing city of London;
Change of career to the recorded music business;
Change of career direction with the move from entrepreneurial to big business;
Change of relationship status due to the move to London;
Change in outlook on life – part living for the moment, part planning my move back to Scotland.

To name a few and believe me, I love change; I have always embraced change and generally find that I deal well with it.

I’ve coped fine with career change, not to bad with the relationship change and settled into a new city, but this time I have found there have been many consequences. The consequences are mainly on my thoughts of myself as well as on my outlook on life in general.

I’m not as tough as I like to think I am. I’m not as confident and I like to make people believe and I definitely have many skeletons that I go out of my way to hide from the world.

I feel that as well as documenting the changes in my life, blogging will help me to understand my feelings and myself a little better. Perhaps help me sort out my head and work out what’s bugging me.

So here goes….